I am the daughter of the King. My Heavenly father, who calls me daughter, has loved me, preserved me, and saved me, in spite of my sin and imperfection. I will honor and praise the LORD and give Him glory through becoming the person He created me to be and living my life as one worthy of the crown.

I am an overcomer. Through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ I have been saved from sin and death. I will testify to this truth in my life so that others may know and accept Jesus as their Savior too.

I was made to love God and to love others. It’s not about me. God has given me the ability to put my own needs aside for periods of time to tend to the needs of others. I recognize this as a gift from the Father and I will strive to allow Him to lead me to those He puts in my life to care for. I will endeavor to do this in healthy ways as the Holy Spirit leads me, and not become an enabler.

I am a student of Rabboni/Teacher – Jesus. He has given me a desire for learning and the gift of intelligence so that I may share knowledge and truths of God’s creation, and especially the Word, with others.

I am a leader with a servant’s heart. The gift of leadership is not to be taken lightly and God has given it to me for very specific purposes. I am to lead under the LORD’s banner (JEHOVAH-NISSI) and always with my heart and mind in a posture of servant-hood; not only to God but to those I am leading.

I am a temple of the Living God. I will strive to maintain the beauty of the temple, inside and out, worthy of He who lives within me, and not allow it to fall into disrepair or be destroyed by myself or others.

I am free. I am no longer a slave to sin; the Son has set me free and the yoke of my former slavery has been removed. I will strive to keep myself free from the chains and imprisonments of my own doing and not be subject again to a yoke of slavery by focusing my eyes on Jesus, by faith and the power of the Holy Spirit who lives within me.

I am a new creation. The old is gone. I will put my past sins, hurts and strongholds behind me and not give them dominion over my future in Christ.

DAY 200

Today I mark the 200th day of dedicated effort toward changing my life by changing my food and fitness behaviors. I started on this journey back in November and although I made very slow progress until I found the Prism program, I still consider it my starting point and celebrate the fact that I made a conscious decision to change what was broken. I've been journaling nearly every day since I started this journey. Sometimes, like today, I go back and re-read past entries and I realize how far I've come not only in weight lost but in my thinking. I think I am most surprised by how emotional this has been. Clearly this was more than just eating habits and nutrition (science) and I'm so grateful to have learned so much about myself in both body and mind. I had no idea there would be so many layers to this thing.

One Sunday afternoon in February

Yesterday afternoon we spent a few hours with Abby (5) and Bella (2). We read stories, drew pictures, and eventually we started a game of hide and seek. Abby decided that Opa should count to ten and she and Bella would hide. Things were going along just fine, the girls squealing with joy as they ran all over the house trying to find hiding places. Well, actually, Abby found the hiding places, Bella just followed wherever Abby went. During one of the games, Opa closed his eyes and began counting and the girls ran off to hide. "One, twoooo, threeeee, four... five... six... seven... eight... nine... what comes after nine?" And from the bedroom came a little voice, "TEN!"

Kicking and screaming

I woke up in a bad mood this morning. My attitude was crummy
before I even shuffled to the bathroom for my morning ablutions. I performed a mental and emotional inventory, searching for a source, and I realized that I
was angry that the weekend I envisioned turned out to be 180 degrees from
reality. I also noticed that the more I felt like I wasn’t getting what I
wanted, the less I wanted to make myself available to anyone or for anything
else. I saw myself as a small child throwing a tantrum after not getting
something she wanted. The spoiled girl voice in my head said, “Fine, then I’m
not going to church early for the prayer group. In fact, I may not go to church
at all!” To which God replied, “It’s not about you.”

Learning to take a God's-eye view of Jerry Springer situations

So I was reading along in Genesis yesterday about Jacob being deceived by his future father-in-law Laban. He worked for seven years to get Rebekah and he gets Leah instead (surprise!). I don't even want to go into how he didn't know it was Leah; that's a conversation for another day. Anyway, so Laban basically says, "Well... just take Leah for now and I'll give you Rebekah if you agree to work for me some more." Jacob agreed to this. I tried to put myself in Jacob's shoes... I would have been angry at Laban. I would have felt betrayed and tricked. I would have felt kind of bad for Leah because she wasn't the one I really wanted (and Leah knew this). I would have felt horrible for Rebekah but I would wonder if she was in on it and therefore was also part of the betrayal. She might have been innocent in which case I would have felt bad about having consummated with Leah. My point is that this was a pretty Jerry Springer kind of situation. What's amazing to me is that God knew all of this, planned it all out, and the 12 tribes of Israel came from this mess. It made me think about all the times in my life when I've thought to myself, "This is so messed up" or "Life is so stinkin hard sometimes" but God knew it all, planned it all, and brought His will out of it anyway. All this in spite of what it looks like to us from our perspective.

The Journey of 75 - How to get to "there" from "here"

The journey of 75lbs begins with...

I'm SO full but this ______ is so good; just one more.
Now my jeans are tight around my calves? Really?!?!
Where are my "fat jeans"? These are too tight (again).
Why am I so tired all the time?
Why do my feet always hurt?
My cholesterol is HOW high?
"They just admitted Dad for emergency quadruple bypass surgery."

I really don't want to take high cholesterol medication.
"Uncle Bob died of a massive heart attack last night."
Side effects of statins include changes in liver function, muscle & joint pain.
I can't stand this anymore; I have to do something about it.

How do I get "there" from "here"?

You don't just wake up one morning and lose 75lbs but you can wake up to the fact that you have to do something about a serious health risk and decide to do something about it. The problem to be solved is figuring out what you're going to do to, what changes you're going to make, how you'll eat, and what your fitness regimen will be.

After spending some time on a bicycle this past summer - a valiant effort to get off the couch but my bicycle seat isn't nearly as comfortable as my recliner - I found out that I can actually enjoy some fitness activities. And before the bikes we were doing more hikes - a little hard on my feet - and I enjoyed that too. Of course those two things aren't going to be enough; I'll have to do more, much more, fitness activity and I'll have to do it daily. Not only that, but eating better, eating less, cutting the garbage out of my diet. I certainly have my work cut out for me.

Like the positiion I was standing in when I took these pictures, I am at the beginning of this journey. There are going to be quite a few steps needed to bridge the gap between "here" and "there". I won't get anywhere unless I begin to take those steps.

Here I go!

Things that make you go hmmm...

Found on a friend's FB status: "So let me get this STRAIGHT... Kelsey Grammer can end a 15 yr marriage by phone, Larry King is on divorce #9, Britney Spears had a 55hr marriage, Jesse James & Tiger Woods, while married, were having sex with EVERYONE, 53% of Americans get divorced & 30-60% cheat on their spouses. Yet, same-sex marriage is going to destroy the institution of marriage? Really? Does anybody else find this ridiculous?"

Given enough time, humans can, and will, find a multitude of ways to mess up.


From JSOnline: Koss' $34 million loss first came to light in December 2009, when American Express notified the company that Sachdeva was paying her personal credit card bills with money from the company. Sachdeva stole the money over a period of at least six years, with the amount taken escalating over time.

Mulvaney is accused in court documents of assisting Sachdeva in hiding the illegal transactions. The SEC complaint says she maintained a binder referred to in the complaint as "the red book." There, according to the complaint, Mulvaney wrote down the false entries she was making in the company's records.

The complaint says she also prepared falsified accounting books and records and maintained them in a series of colored folders referred to as the "rainbow files." The files were green, orange, blue or yellow, depending on the year, and included more than 100 fraudulent transactions, the complaint says.


Very organized, not very ethical.